The nightmare began at the start of the 1st week of Feb 2010

I couldnt get the thought of X lying about seeing someone else, something was getting to me and I didnt know what but I needed to make sure I hadnt picked up any nasty infections if he had so I went to get checked at the sexual health clinic in Leeds on the Tuesday the 2nd Feb. I was there for over an hour having every test available and I remember thinking so hurt about putting myself through this as I should never have gone against my gut instinct.

I got called back into the nurse who said to be everything seems to be fine and there was no clear evidence of any infections however I would get my results back confirming this in a week or so by text so to look out for the message. She then said to me 'we also did a pregnancy test and the result has come back positive, when was your last period?'.... I looked at her in disbelielf and I said to the nurse 'this must be wrong, I am on the pill I have PCOS and it isnt easy for me to concieve. Are you sure you are right?'....She nodded and to put my mind at rest she did another, which came back with the same result....positive!!! I was in total shock, what the hell was I going to do? I didnt want to think about it at all and I wanted to forget all what I had discovered. Maybe I thought it would just sort itself out, maybe the test's she had done were wrong, so I pushed it to the back of my mind. I thought I will forget about it all for now, I would speak to X at the weekend and things will be fine.

I didnt contact X that much that week, I didnt know what to say as I didnt know how I felt about this myself. I was angry about being in this situation at all, X had been lying and I knew it even though he still felt like lying to me about it all. Why didnt I walk away? Why did I think this would ever be a good idea? It was a complete disaster and it was about to get worse.